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~ My Dog Isaiah is worse than a child. Little fucker woke me up cause he had to go potty. I think at times I need to litter box train him. Hmmmm it is a thought. Any whoooo now I am up and board off my ass. Steven is sick yet AGAIN! I swear that guy is always sick. His immune sysytem must not be that high. He said he might be going to the Dr's. This was at 2000. So I am not sure if he did go or not. Cause I went to bed. I just hope he get's to feeling better. It really sucks being sick :-( Well my Mom went in and has her chest x-rays done and her other blood work done. Also she got all the paper work done for her surgery which is on the 30th. So she is in the system. On Monday we find out the results from all the tests. I still hope they are wrong and it is not cancer and it has not spread any where in her body. If there is a God then this will be the out come. I've been praying for her......not for me but for her. She has so much more life to live. My demons (kids) know she may be sick but they don't know with what. I am not gonna tell them till I know. I don't need them freaking out. Bad enough I am freaking out. my Dad is with her though so that is good!!!! Vid had his Dr's appointment too. He got put on new med's and he also got put on some meds for his mood swings, yay!!!! I am not the only one! Maybe now we will not fight so much. Guess we shall see. Other than that not much else is going on.....life is pretty much boring......Oh Dutch.....grrrr.....he almost knocked me on my ass today as I tried to clean his pen. I could of knocked him back. I got to work on his commands. I do not like the fact he jumps on people. I got to work on that with Isaiah too, but Isaiah is only like a pound....pound and a half maybe and Dutch is like 85-90 lbs. Big difference!!!!! I am just glad we got his pen :-) Now all the fucking strays can stay away. I swear the ppl around here do not take care of their dogs.....they get them and then let them run where ever and if they get hit or what ever...it's like no big deal. Kind of fucked up if you ask me. Well I am off.....nighty night time.......demons rise early....blah!~

~Well My Mom got her bone scan done today. So now we have to wait till the 27th to find out the results of the bone scan to see if it is cancer and to see just how far the cancer has spread. Just the thought still makes me sick with worry. Sure my mom drives me nuts at times, but I want nothing bad to happen to my mom. I love her....I don't even want to think about it.~

Just wanted to wish everyone who may read this a Happy St. Patricks Day! May the luck of the Irish smile upon you!!!!

~Another day.....Hmmmmm...what is there to say? Tomorrow my Mom goes in for her bone scan. I know she is scared. I hope all goes well with that. Steven's not really talking to me....so fuck him. I can be a bitch right back. Hmmm to bands worth talking about Scarling and Zeromancing.....check them out.....~

Found out something is wrong with my mom. They found a tumor on her leg and they say it is cancer. So needless to say the last few days have not been so kind to me. I feel as if I just got slapped up side the face by a truck. How does one deal with this? I am making my self go numb so I do not have to feel or think about it. I feel as if the world is closing in on me. I know I am not the only one who has felt this but God I just do not know what to do. I want to cry but I can't. Part of me wants to cut but everyone says no........I've asked ppl to pray for my mom. Mostly my on line friends. All have said they would and I am greatful for that. Guess that is all....don't want to bore any one who may read this........